“Heal me, LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.” Jeremiah 17:14
“Let all that I am praise the Lord;
may I never forget the good things he does for me.
He forgives all my sins
and heals all my diseases.
He redeems me from death
and crowns me with love and tender mercies.
He fills my life with good things.
My youth is renewed like the eagle’s!” Psalm 103: 2-5
These have become 2 of my favorite verses I use to praise Jesus with over and over every single day since I was HEALED on Saturday, June 4th, 2016. My friends and fellow believers laid hands on me the night before and prayed for healing at a small group study and I was healed.
I almost didn’t go. I almost let “everything else” get in the way…get in God’s way! I was tired. I had run errands all day, sat in waiting rooms, been poked and prodded. Now I was running late, was hurting in more ways than just physical, was in a crabby mood, and was making excuses not to go. I felt so distracted…disenfranchised…disjointed…discomforted.
But with every excuse I kept hearing that oh so small nudge of God’s voice telling me “Go.”
So, finally, I obeyed, simple as that.
When I got there we were all eating and talking about missions and frankly, I cannot remember much at all about the conversation except when a friend said something that really smacked me upside the head. I mean, he (or HE?) REALLY got my attention. He said, “You have to be in shape to go.” I’m sure he said more, but those eight simple words were all I heard in that moment. My brain immediately went to, “Oh he means well but he really has no idea what all this is like to live with.” I wasn’t upset with him, in fact I agreed…but I had already resigned myself that I would never “get to” go anywhere to spread God’s Word and the love of Jesus no matter my passion, because I was…. “sick”. Throughout the rest of the night however, those eight simple words… “You have to be in shape to go” wouldn’t go away. All evening, his words kept popping in my head and distracting me. Those eight simple words would not go away, they just wouldn’t.
Now, I need to tell you…I am a Christian, I was a Christian on June 4th. I know that Jesus died for my sins. I know He made the ultimate sacrifice for all of us. I know that He deserves more in return for that sacrifice than I can ever give Him. I know I fall short every single day. I have always tried to be a “good” Christian. I even know that doing this life on your own is absolutely impossible. Trying to do any part of our lives without God being in complete control is ludicrous. Trying to shoulder all the weight of what the world throws at us without giving it all to God is simply insane.
I know this because I know what I have NOT always done.
What I have NOT always done is completely surrender every part of myself to Him. What I have NOT always done is TRUST Him completely. What I have NOT always done is take EVERYTHING to Him and leave it with Him. What I have not always done is truly BELIEVE in how much He loves me. What I have NOT always done is be OBEDIENT to Him.
So, while my friends were praying for my healing, I was praying for help in all the areas that were lacking. All those areas where I kept trying but was “not always” serving Him, trusting Him, obeying Him, and going to Him all the time. Those areas where I just didn’t get how much He loves me all the time! That night when my friends laid hands on me for my healing, I was surrendering. I told Him that I could not do anything without Him and I needed His help in every way to “Get me in shape to go.”
I woke up the next morning and I was healed…yep, I AM HEALED! Two short weeks ago, I had cervical cancer, lupus, fibromyalgia, celiac disease, and PTSD. Some of those were fairly new and some of those illnesses I have lived with for years and yet today, I have none of those diseases because GOD HEALED ME! He healed me completely! He performed the miraculous in me! Now, He’s helping me “get in shape to go.”
I will do whatever He asks and go wherever He sends me! What will you do for Him?
What are you struggling with? What areas of your life need healing? What can you take to God right now and leave with Him…in total surrender?
Post by Jennifer Blohn